Happy vs. Anger

Today morning woke up at around 6 plus
went to airport to sent my Godma, my uncle and my cousin off.
They are departing for Australia.
They may be back in 2 years time.
I had a great time when they were here :)
Miss Them!

Went to Terminal 3's Mc Donalds to buy breakfast for my bro, my aunt and me :)
And bought Kopitiam's food for my dad :)

The Mc Donald's counter did not put the food properly
when i took it, it was slanted
In the car, it dropped out
The food came out and dropped into the plastic bag
My mum scolded me for not taking it properly
I used my vare hand to take the sausage, egg and breads
I was burnt by it, it hurts!

Was very angry!!!
could not take it
little tears came out but had beared it

What happened to my family?!
do a little of things wrong will surely get scolded!
i remember last time i accidentally spill my water onto the floor
then was being scolded by my dad

Another time is i was finding something on my mum's labtop
dinner was ready and my parent called
I said wait for i think 2 times then
my mum or my dad could not take it he/she scolded me

Why am i always getting scolding...?!
Why am i always the person to make my parents' volcanos erupt?!
After it erupted, the radiation will hit my bro
then he'll get the scolding...

Sometimes i was really angry that i did not know what to do...
punching the wall is torturing myself but it feels better after that
Or just stay in my room to cry and blast my music to cool down...

There times i feel that what' the point to stay at home and get scolding from my parents...
there's times i don't fell like going home
and times i feel that friends are better than family...

But sometimes i was happy
when my parents bought things for me, i'll be happy
when they give me money to go out, i'll be happy
when they bring me out for shopping, i'll be happy...
There are more angry/sad times compared to happy times when i'm at home

Bye,

Hotaru